As I sit here this evening, I just ponder on what my life would be like if my precious Brodee were in it. I realize that I will never know what it would be like, but does it hurt me to daydream? Somehow I believe that pondering is part of the process. You know, the grieving process everyone wants to tell you how to endure. I find comfort in sometimes acting like Brodee is asleep in his nursery and that when I go in there for something, as I often do, he will be there sleeping peacefully. Then somehow I always snap back into reality. Brodee is gone and though I want so bad to touch his face and kiss his lips, I can't. Nor will I ever be able to as long as I remain on this earth, but I know with all my heart I will hold him again. I, through my faith and love for Jesus Christ, will have him in my arms again someday and I may never let him go when I get my hands on that precious angel. He represents everything that Jeremy and I are, and to those of you who truly know us, we are love. This loss has brought us so much closer and for that I am so grateful. Perspective is a great word and I am thankful that something happened to me at such a young age to make me realize the true meaning of that word. Life is full of materialistic and non-materialistic things and since the loss of Brodee, this is what matters in my life at the end of the day. Well first and foremost, GOD. The only person who can for sure heal my broken heart and lead me to a place of reunion one day. And oh what a beautiful day that will be. Then there is my precious FAMILY... the people in my life at the end of the day who I know that I can always count on for anything. Then there are those FRIENDS who just automatically fall under the family category because even though they aren't, they should be. Then there are friends. As you can see, none of those things are materialistic, so maybe I just saved you from having to experience something so trajic before realizing what is ultimately right in front of all of our faces.
3 comments:
Thank you for messing up my makeup this morning! I yern for Brodee too, and can see him so much in the bug! I am so inspired by you and Jeremy. You all are such an inspiration to anyone young and old. We are so blessed to have you in our lives. I thank God every day for you. Love you muffin!
Oh, my!! Words can not even describe how precious this is. I am like Kaci, I was balling. I have seen a side of you that I thought I would never get to see. I have seen your incredible strength, and faith through such a tragic situation. You inspire me everyday to make the most of my life and never take anything for granted. I used to be concerned with all of the material things, but this as well, has broadened my horizons. I am thankful everyday for my family. I just want you to know how much I love you and will always be there for you, no matter what time of the day or night it is!! I love you with all my heart!
Why did I never know you had a blog! Now that I am crying ... seriously ... maybe it was best I didn't find out. I love you and have so much respect for you and Jeremy and the strong amazing people you are!
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